oh takut pls!!

Def -A phobia is an intense, unrealistic fear, which can interfere with the ability to socialize, work, or go about everyday life, that is brought on by an object, event or situation.

my confessions on my phobias -sangt tidak masuk akal.

top 3 on my head

scared of : clowns, durians and POLICEMEN

a few years ago (i believe there is a reason why certain movies are rated), ok way way when i was young, i watch this scaryMovie called "IT". its about a dressed up/full makeUp clown (siap with a long telinga to telinga smile) goes around killing people. i remembered i couldnt sleep that nite. and i believe that triggerred why i get all frozen and scared (berpeluh all) when i am near one.

a frend of mine who thought my phobia of clowns can be cured by quitely sitting one right next to me (wht the hell was he thnkng!!), only found out how loud i could scream and how fast my hands can move in defense...it was a tragic scene k. the whole restaurant stopped and looked at our table. i attacked the clown (pushing his face away, as if he was attacking me, bole??) while screaming my lungs out.

poor clown.

durians, mmmm..ive blogged about this.. its a phobia or an affair, u can name it all u want.

which comes to my third wackiest Phobia-POLICEMEN.

yep, well dressed policemen, be it i see on the roads or in meetings (ie policemen attending a meeting wearing full uniform), i get all scared inside.

i will first sit up straight.

then try to loose all focus on him, look elsewhere, but hell its always too obvious that in the end the policemen will start the conversation.

i keep telling myself, im a big gurl! i cant be scared, apa yg i buat, i didnt to anything wrong

so as the years went by, whenever i attend a meeting and theres somehow a policemen sitting closeby, i overcome first by being blunt "encik, sebenarnya saya ni kalau tngok polis, somehow kecut perut, tak tahu kenapa"

as if that helps. the police thinks its my way of starting a conversation. demmit!

and so yesterday after a long day, i was stopped by a policemen during a roadBlock.

the worst fear has come to life.

this is it, im facing my ultimate fear, facing the POLICEMEN

segala doa i kumat kamit, no jampi.

just them doa senangkan keadaan, murahkan rezeki that mama so oftenly remind me recite every morning...

i did that haram u-turn a while ago, but i dont think the policemen saw,

but whtever it was, i was there. stopped by the police and as i can see him approaching my car, i thought of that attack i did on the clown

then i remembered the story of a lady in KL who fainted after a policemen stopped her , just because she this fear of policemen, but in the end she was stopped because he car plate was falling off..

i tried to calm myself...breath breath...

i lowered down my window, showed my best smile (i dont have other best assets to showOff haha) and ask "ye encik?"

he gave a timid smile, u knw the type yg u want to be nice, but u jst cant because ure an enforcer, cheh!

he asked a few questions, another policemen looked at my carPlate a few times, and amazingly (and of course alhamdulilah) he let me go...

up till im typing this i still cant figure why they stopped me in the first place...rafek thinks it thats u-turn thingi i did.. haha

as for me, im just glad to be back home, no ticket!

(speeding ticket is a whole different thing, pls!)